My mind refuses stillness like it carries a foreign disease.

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Every day, my mind is constantly filled with something that keeps my mind active. One second I'm thinking of that 'Dog of Wisdom' video by Joe Gran, the next I'm thinking of that "Kinema Kan" Touhou MV, and then Tsurupettan, then I'm thinking of that one HyperJumper HOI4 Trump edit, then I'm thinking of how much I hate the (((jews))), then I'm thinking of one of those fanmade Touhou albums, then I'm thinking of some random Mussolini edit I saw on Twitter.com, then I'm thinking of why my mind won't shut the fuck up for more that five seconds- YOU GET THE POINT. Every time I try to focus on my daily nessecary obligations my mind refuses to actually divert any amount of useful brainpower to focusing on said obligation, and when I'm not actively thinking of some fuckass topic nobody gives a shit about, my mind is STILL using its power. How? BY HAVING ME THINK OF SONGS. In my mind I'm listening to Heaven Knows I'm Miserable Now by The Smiths, Then It's Bad Apple (I don't remember who made Bad Apple), then it's My Life is a Party by ItaloBrothers. This is what fucking bothers me: the fact that my mind only wants to focus on random shit, and refuses to not shut up, even when I'm not actively doing anything. It's like it has a mind of its own, hitting buttons at specific times to ruin my ability to be productive, and when I'm not active, it still has to make me use my damn brain power by playing music in my head. I feel as if the only times my mind actually lets me work peacefully the most is when I'm REALLY focused on something. Even as I'm writing this, my mind is STILL going back and forth between the same two songs in my head. One moment it's Discount Weekend (The autoplay music on the main page), and that one rendition of Mufasa's theme from one of those fan made "House Set" Touhou Albums. I typically don't listen to music when I'm doing necessary things, usually because I can't, but even when I do, I still get random thoughts, NO MATTER HOW TINY THEY ARE. I just wish I could get my mind to shut up for once and actually serve ME, the body it's been with its whole life. It's all so tiresome.

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Today, I actually make a proper index page for these entries so that you won't have to worry about being lost when reading these. It will be sorted newest to oldest.