what will i provide to the world?

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I have no talent, nor do I have any applicable skills that can take me further than just "street sweeper" or "cashier". Throughout the entire time I have ever been alive, I have always spent that time finding out what I love, what makes me happy. Not once has that ever involved or lead to me discovering some hidden talent or even starting me on the path towards having one. So what I make my family occasionally happy and make a few people laugh? Am I inventing the wheel mk2? No. Am I learning an instrument? No. Am I becoming an artist? No. Am I even contributing to society in ways more meaningful than simply getting a job? NO. I have a friend who is really good at drawing. I always push him to do big with his talent, because there are MANY people before this generation who have created masterpieces that are still remembered and revered to this day. I'm not necessarily forcing him to be like Leonardo da Vinci, just reminding him that he can do so much more, go to higher planes than the one he shares with me. Me? I dont know jack shit, which is why I've always been here. Here. The level where talent starts for everyone else, but not me. All the shits and pisses I take aren't really worth it when I have nothing to outweigh all I produce biologically. Napoleon Bonaparte shat and pissed, but was that all he could ever do on Earth? No, he led entire armies, struck fear into his enemies, and conquered Europe. Do I shit and piss? Yes. Am I doing anything meaningful? Nope. I am just a statistic, a few pieces of legal paper. Am I doing anything that can bridge me into finding out what I excel at? I can't even do that. I fail at the tutorial level, while everyone else has already made it more than halfway. Is this really it? Is this all I'm destined to be? Just a statistic? When I was younger, I had promised myself that when I was older, I would do something so big it would leave a mark on history, write my name into history. Younger me was more ambitious, but now I realize that was merely a delusion. How could I ever leave a mark on history when I can't even muster the strength to succeed at the most basic things imaginable? I don't. My ears hurt.

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